I am having a really tough time today. I feel like my whole world is coming crashing down as I sit here and write. There is a thousand pound weight on my chest and I cannot breath. I try to hold back the tears and still they fall. My head hurts.
I just want this all to end. I am ready for the stuggle to be over. The last five years have been such a challenge. I finally thought things were looking up and I was going to graduate and finally have my degree I have been trying to get for so long. Not anymore.
I am standing between a rock and a hard place with no where to escape. Maybe Monday will bring some much needed information. Maybe then I will be able to understand why things have been going this way and what to do about it. I hope.
I need help with this situation. I can no longer support the thousand pound weight all alone. I have tried and my mind and body are giving out. People all have an opinion and think they know best - but none of their ideas have helped. I am exhausted.
I am not going to give up. I just need to remember - Monday will be here soon. I have waited since August - the wait is almost over. Hopefully after the appointment, things will start to slow down. I need a breather.