So ok. I have been under an insane amount of stress lately and I haven't freaked out...yet.
I am really starting to feel the crunch. I was told two days before school started this semester that I would not be able to attend. I lost my financial aid...again...crap. So now I am left wondering what is going to happen to me, what I need to be doing, where I should be, where am I going to work, how am I going to manage. Yeah - I'm "starting to freak". Just thinking about everything that I have to figure out is making my stomach churn. I don't know what to do or what to think or how I am going to manage.
I know that in the whole scheme of life...to many people especially right now with the Hurricane Katrina issues...this may not seem like a big deal...but lemme tell you...it sucks. I just wish that I could wave a magic wand and make everything change. I feel like I need to just snap outta it - but I'm not even sure what I am in that I need to get out of...this is totally confusing and isn't making my stomach feel any better.
I went and picked up applications around town today - and will be doing the same thing tomorrow. I am just really fearful that nothing will work out. I guess I am losing hope. I am wondering if I shouldn't just stay home this semester...I will have enough $ to get by without working - but I will have to pull Trent out of Jodi's. I don't want to do that!
WHERE IS MY FAIRY GOD-MOTHER WHEN I NEED HER? Sleeping Beauty had 3 of them - you would think she would be kind enough to share!!!
Anyway...more on this problem later...I'm freaking out more now than I was when I started this...not good...gonna go have some popcorn and watch a happy movie!
I'M OUT